Midnight Reflections: Turning Regret into Love

Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night, the wee hours of the morning and your mind just won't turn off? That happened for me last night, and every single thing that I've ever done in my entire existence was on replay, all the things that I didn't like, all the things that I was ashamed of, all of the things that I judged myself for and found myself lacking. They were all in full living Technicolor, and I found myself cringing.

When I recognized that, I took the time to slow down, to be in my heart and to welcome my experience as best I could. I acknowledged the truth, I acknowledged what it's been like to be me. I acknowledged all those different times by time traveling to them, and acknowledging that I was doing the best that I could with what I had. I acknowledged where I just kind of gave up, or maybe I settled for less, and I saw clearly that before I didn't even recognize what I was doing in the moment. I hadn’t recognized that I wasn't keeping my eyes on what I love, on what I would really like for myself and for my sons.

That's what really got me, was my sons. And then when I recognized that, I stopped and I said, “Oh, it's all about love. Everything's about love.”

So what do I do now? I focus on what I love and I see what are the ways that I can be a blessing in the lives of my sons, of all of my children, and I take action to go and do that. I encourage you to do the same. Recognize what you love and go and do that.